Today I was reminded of how precious the four gifts I’ve been given truly are. I was reminded of so much more than just the joys they bring everyday but the eternal blessing they are to me and the amazing responsibility I have to cherish them. There are so many ways I could go with this post…but I’m going to try and remain on track.
Sam turned 9! Where did the years go…I have one more year to enjoy single digits and then we hit the big 1-0. Am I really old enough to have a child this age. Sometimes my body says, “yup, you’re definitely old enough”:) I know, I’m still a baby to some of you but when you’ve given birth four times there are parts that don’t work as well, don’t look the same, and just generally speaking the body starts to change. My mind says I’m still so young…I just graduated, I just got married, I just started this family! It could go on but the truth is I have a 9 year old!
When I see the beautiful boy that God has given me I’m astounded at the intricacy of our Creator’s mind. I see a little boy, who is becoming a young man…I see a smile, a frown, a tear, a smirk and I know that there are so many faucets of this person. Some I know all too well and others that seem to escape my notice. I hear him growling in frustration at his homework, I see him gently lift his baby sister into his lap after dinner and snuggle her, I discuss with him the benefit of owning a “slap-chop” and how if I call in the next twenty minutes I’ll also get a second one and a free grater and in all those moments I experience a myriad of emotions at how the baby I held such a short time ago has become such a beautiful person. He’s far from perfect, he gets angry, he yells, he stomps, he slams doors but when I reflect in quieter moments I know that isn’t what defines him. He’s human, just like me! Instead I see that he is a sensitive, loving, kind little boy who belongs to me! I am the one who has been blessed with his presence. He’s a gift to ME…a special treasure that should be valued and proudly displayed.
I hope that in the next 9 years I can hold on and let go, that I can guide him and befriend him, that I can love him and like him. Every year will bring a new challenge, a new realization of who he is but I know I can trust one thing…that the Creator of Heaven and Earth already has a purpose and knowledge of where he is leading this treasure of a child and what role I will play in that!
Happy Birthday Sam. You are a gift and my prayer is that you NEVER forget that.