I was reading through my journal today and came across something I’d written that actually just illustrates how I feel about my life right now so I thought I’d share!!!
May 16, 2008
Sometimes being a mom can be so overwhelming and then other times come along when we feel the joy deep into our souls. As I reflect on the last years of the normal trials we’ve faced in child-rearing I can see God’s faithfulness throughout. He’s blessed us with three healthy, active little people and a fourth happily taking residence in my body for the time being. A crazy mix of personalities, ideas, emotions and expressions I wouldn’t change for the world. God’s love is evident to me in the daily forgiveness I receive from my almost seven year old son who fights with me nonstop but is so much like me, I sometimes do a double-take. Or in the giggles I hear coming from behind a closed door and later find all three super heroes wrapped in their “blankies” pretending to be Captain Underpants. One day I know the commradarie of childhood will end and be replaced by teenage impatience, a never-ending flow of youthful “wisdom” and a busyness I can only begin to imagine. But for now I can choose to allow God’s fullness to envelop me and enjoy the memories being created.
One of those amazing memories being created is definitely happening this summer as I watch Sam grow into a young man. He’s playing his first season of tackle football and as a mom it’s hard to squelch those feelings of “my son’s the best out there” but for the sake of his pride and with the knowledge that that attitude will not help him become a better player I’ve managed to quietly watch him practise and encourage without being over the top about it. But I will say this that he’s trying his best despite feeling a little overwhelmed by the intensity of the sport and as an aspiring athlete has already received some recognition from the local paper. Here’s the link to read about Sam’s contribution to history.
Anyway, as I find myself so content this summer I am being reminded how short-lived these years tend to be and how I absolutely MUST intentionally enjoy them before they pass me by! One day I’ll wish them back only to be hit with the reality that it’s too late and you can only live your life once. And more importantly you only get one chance to be a great mom so make the best of it, mistakes and all!!!